Wednesday, March 31, 2010

of all the fish in the sea, you would be the greatest catch

sunday, after church, boy and i took the ferry into the city.
it was wonderful. i love the ferry. and i love the city.

bc it was such a dreary beautiful day, we decided to have lunch out on the deck at pier 23.
we prefer pier 23 for like a nighttime, somewhere fun to have a drink kind of experience.
but the sunshine and the bay were nice. and so was the company.

we then made our way to the crazy touristy part of the wharf.
and as we were walking we decided that the bay aquarium looked like it might be fun.
so we gave it a shot.
it was such a colorful experience.

the pink and orange guy in the bottom-left photo was my absolute favorite, boy liked the yellow guy behind dory.
don't worry: i definitely climbed onto the rocks, with all the other 6 year olds, to touch the starfish.
slimy, but worth it.

the entire day, from start to finish, was pretty much perfect. after being in class  all day  on saturday, this was such a nice way to make the most of my weekend.  ...all this talk about the weekend is getting me anxious for the one to come! 
hump day is so exciting, right? definitely my favorite in the monday through friday lull :)
ugh i'm only 23 and i already live for the weekends. frightening!


"so come on love (come on, come one, come all and go) nah nah nah nah nah nah nah, i will not let you go"

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

we're weird.

did any of you see paper heart?


these two people are maybe the most ridiculously awkward people alive,
and they fall in love.
and it works.

i have some quirks.
i am becoming increasingly aware of them.
sometimes they frustrate the crap out of me,
and i know they frustrate the crap out of those close to me :)
but it's me.

i think jane austen was a genuis. and i'm pretty sure that she, too, captured this element of love so perfectly
when mr. knightley says to emma,
"maybe it is our imperfections, which make us so perfect for one another."

so, while i can't promise perfection, i can promise me. and all i want is you. and i think that this could work. just saying.

happy tuesday everyone.

ps. i hope that this post was not too "esoteric" for you. i guess i'm guilty of that. i also hope that i used the term "esoteric" appropriately here. 

another ps. this guy at peets thinks he's keanu reeves. gag.

i don't have a title for this.


"i don't know what the success will be--but if the missionaries of charity have brought joy to one unhappy home--made one innocent child from the street keep pure for Jesus--one dying person die in peace with God--don't you think, your grace, it would be worth while offering everything--for just that one--because that one would bring great joy to the Heart of Jesus."

{mother teresa: come be my light}

Monday, March 29, 2010

love like a sunset

okay i've found a little inspiration these past few days...
it has come in many different forms, so i'm thinking that i will take the week to catch you up.

two thursdays ago, i got off work and realized that it would be a beautiful evening to try and catch the sunset.
so stella and i twisted around hillyturny highway 1, and made it just in time for this delicious treat...

i was having one of those really lovely extreme girl moments...
so i turned my music up SUPER loud,
rolled the windows down,
and cried until there were no more tears.

by the time i got to the beach, all i could do was sit and enjoy.
it was completely perfect.

ps. i decided that i wouldn't let myself edit the photos {with the exception of a border, obviously}.
although i think that editing is usually necessary for a good shot, i really believe that there are some things that should simply remain untouched. God's sunset, on this particular day, was one such thing.

"it comes, a visible illusion, oh where it starts and ends, love like a sunset"

Thursday, March 25, 2010

i'm supposed to be reading for school.

i feel uninspired.
help me. what is inspiring you today?

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

i think i think too much

...wednesday thoughts...

sometimes i think i have better taste in music than others. is that terrible of me??

this guy two tables over keeps calling the girl he is meeting with "sweetie." i find it disturbing.
{they're not dating or anything. she's married to someone from beliz}

...apparently i need to learn to  mind my own business :)

do you ever feel like the bigger slash crazier your hair is, the more fun and mysterious you are?
{ neither...}

i hate it when i sort my laundry, and try to prioritize the loads, but each load has something i desperately need.
{in college, i sorted my laundry by priority, but i've ruined too many white tshirts doing that}

project...we'll go 3...

"baby, you remind me of a jar of glitter, 'cause when i look at you, all you do is shine"
{me. don't's gonna be an amazing song :) }

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

you give me something

nail polish. you. mac shimmer. gladiator sandals. you. sunshine. sunsets at the beach. ingrid. driving with the windows down. snow cones. you. family. your eyes. chicago. jorts {jean shorts}. lifelong friends. new friends. you. espresso. swinging. michael buble. you. you. you. you. you.

smiling tonight.

goodnight big world. looking forward to the morning.

"your life will not go unnoticed, because i will notice it. your life will not go unwitnessed, because i will be your witness."
{shall we dance. yes, again. crying? yes, again.}

ps. i am dating a movie star :) okay, close enough. yay for you, boy!

Monday, March 22, 2010


this morning i was having a conversation with a friend, and i felt like i was back in middle school again. after i hung up, i just saw myself as this dorky girl in the midst of all of puberty's glory. we're talking drew barrymore in never been kissed kind of behavior. i over-shared. i stumbled over my words. i think i seemed way more enthused than my friend. it was just weird.

and what really blows my mind is that i felt that way pretty much  all day long.
i mean...what's with that?

anyway...crossing my fingers...
that this is just me being a girl, 
that i am the only one pickin' up on the josie grossy behavior, 
and that this feeling is gone when i wake up in the morning.

i guess the good news is that things worked out pretty well for her in the end. prom queen and she gets the boy. done deal.
"can i have 5 minutes on the clock please?"

really hoping that some of you do this too

thank you for being my friend, mr. sun

pleasant thoughts for monday...

the beach.
the city.
the trails.
spring break.
new sunglasses.
you've got mail.
driving. windows down. john mayer, jason mraz, and amos lee at startling volumes.

mondays are better when you have something to look forward to, yes?

all my love.

"you can turn off the sun, but i'm still gonna shine, and i'll tell ya why. because the remedy is the experience...and i won't worry my life away."
{jason mraz}

ps. the project will continue when i find a little more time

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

what's going on?

today i'm feeling:
did i make that up?
sitting here listening to ub40 is making me smile and sway my hips a little bit as i dream about dancing on the beach with a hot guy {blonde hair, blue eyes, about 6'1"}. pina colada in hand.

today i'm afraid of:
my okie friends having too much fun without me tonight.
{selfish, i know, but hey- i'm a work in progress!}

today i'm grateful for:
good conversations with a few people that mean the world to me.
{sister, boy, chel, april}

today i'm looking forward to:
my parents visit in june, trip to disney world in the fall, getting in touch with my "inner artist," potential forbes island date

today i'm neglecting:

today i'm proud of myself for:
maybe loving too much

go out and play

project day 2:

my safety exists inside these walls.
i come out to join you inside yours,
but dusk calls me in each night,
inside my haven-- free of harm, free of fear.

but you invite me out to see the stars.
offering your hand, your smile, your heart,
i fear these walls can no longer keep me in.
and what will happen if i break free?

like the open desert, i am exposed.
no safety, no shelter.
but it's a freedom i can no longer resist.
these walls are coming down...and i can see the stars.
my hope exists outside these walls.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010


okay so i have an update for you...

closet door: 3
jordan: 0
boy: 1

though i can't take any credit for getting that awful thing down, i will say that i chose the boy who would have the brawn to come in and get the job done. therefore, i will consider this our victory {and i think he will be okay with this}.  either way, i am just so glad to have this curtain up in its place- it makes for a much more enjoyable morning experience!

project day 1:

the sun on my face gives me hope to press on.
breaking free,
i move forward until my feet touch the water.
meeting the edge,
i kneel and let the great pacific wash over my wounds.
breathing deep, 
i take in all that she longs to provide,
standing still,
i experience the beauty of my Maker,
turning back, 
i move toward a new day.
the sun on my face gives me hope to press on. 

happy tuesday.

Monday, March 15, 2010

where did all this come from? oh yeah...

yesterday i realized that nearly all of my favorite girly songs are kind of depressing. all of them are the aftermath of love. post-bliss. post-smile. moment of heartbreak and beyond.
{totally great, but maybe not what i'm looking for}

so this morning i made a different kind of girly playlist.
it has 65 songs on it... {!!!}

on another note...
starting a project today. a little nervous about it. it involves openness and vulnerability {which we all know is not my cup of tea}.
i think it will be good for me though. 
here's to holding hands with my fears.

image via jamelah

much love.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

today the world is ours

it feels like every sunday is the last day of a really great vacation.

i kind of hate that.
is that okay?

"don't stop believing, hold onto the feeling."

Thursday, March 11, 2010

tik tok on the clock

seriously, weekend: will you just get here already??

MIGHT have failed a test today {okay, by failed i mean, like, a C} BUT it's okay bc i am more than a grade. AND bc i bought some really cute things from h&m after class. ahhh.

on another note...
i just love seeing men buying flowers at the store. it always fills me with hope that there is a woman at home who will have a huge smile on her face tonight.

all my love.

"slow down. lie down. remember it's just you and me...grant my last request and just let me hold ya, don't shrug your shoulders, lay down beside me."
{paolo nutini}

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

abuela y abuelo, everybody sing along

a glimpse of some of my wednesday self-talk for you...
jordan: quit looking for the past in your present. it isn't there!

i just plucked my eyebrows in the starbucks parking lot...who am i?

today, i mentioned to a friend that i need a hammer, and the two women {who sit next to me at the coffee bar pretty much every day} both offered to bring me theirs tomorrow. i love community.

the two women in line right now both have on leopard print cardigans. i feel left out. why the crap don't i own one yet?

confession: i can't stop listening to lil freak {usher}, and i feel really bad for it :)
i was going to use this song for my lyrics today, but i can't even do it. it's too dirty!

"i'm a freak, but i ain't gon' lie...get nasty, get freaky, you sexy, you fine...go go go go girl"
{pibtull. sorry...i'm listening to my zumba playlist, and i just had to}

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

baby get my order right, no erras

okay confession: i'm not very good at asking for help.

i was at target the other day, and i bought two really big things. the man at the counter told me to go to the front and ask someone to help me take my purchases to the car. so i smiled and gave him a very polite "okay great! thanks so much!" while thinking to myself
"are you kidding? no way am i asking someone to help me."

so i rode on the back of my very full buggy until i made it to the car. i loaded my boxes into the back seat. drove home. and carried the boxes up to my apartment. my mom got mad at me bc i didn't tell anyone in my life that i might need help with this task.

but i got it done!
and my muscles are going to be a little bit stronger bc of it.
and so is my confidence.

closet door: 2
jordan: 0

so this is me pep-talking myself. this silly closet door is giving me so much trouble! it is so extreme that i've caught myself thinking, "why don't you just call a boy and have him come take it off?" that's a big deal...
don't worry...i haven't given in to such thoughts.

i'm going to get it. i am.
and thank you for all of your support btw :)

"save your breath 'cause here comes the truth, i'm over the drama of you and that's something new."
{ashlee simpson}

Monday, March 8, 2010

you've got foam on your lip

"in my mind, we can conquer the world"

closet door- 1
jordan- 0

but today is a new day.
pictures to come {after my victory of course}

freaking walgreens had lars and the real girl for 3.99 today.

i'm feeling very distracted today. but in a completely perfect way. continual smile.

"don't you worry there my honey, we might not have any money, but we've got our love to pay the bills."

Sunday, March 7, 2010

thanks for makin' me a fighter

i'm about to start a fight and there is no one around to hold me back.

meet {what i now KNOW to be} the villain of the century...

he's stubborn.
he's tough.
he's ugly.
he's got the joker, ursula, and voldemort beat by a hundred-fold.

time for this bad boy to come down so that i can put up my cute, sweet shabby chic curtain.

Friday, March 5, 2010

are we there yet

time for the weekend.

hoping for some real blog time tomorrow :)
peace. love. friday.

"i never thought i'd fall so far down this incredibly long dark hole. something so sweet as the sound of your feet on the floor would give me more room to breathe."
{ingy michaelson}

Thursday, March 4, 2010

throw me a rope

busy day ahead.

today i feel completely refreshed. i woke up and the sun was shining. i started my pot of coffee {and yes, i think i have successfully managed to drink the entire thing...yikes}, threw in a load of laundry, fed the puppita, and jumped in the car 15 minutes early. i'm never early.

i love how the morning brings with it a sense of rejuvenation. whatever i was feeling yesterday or last night is gone. today i feel good, and that is what i'm gonna go with. i know i've mentioned this before, but it's always fun to re-live and re-learn life lessons.

ps. class is rocking my world and stretching my mind today.
another ps. i think this coffee is starting to make me jittery. it's becoming difficult to type. eek.

much love.

"i want you between me and the feeling i get when i miss you."
{kt tunstall}

one more ps. i am LOVING the music recommendations you girls gave yesterday. yum.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

and i was like, why are you so obsessed with me?

last night, in class, i was reminded of one of my all time favorite movie moments.
thought i would share it with you today.

i just love this so much. it warms my <3 a little bit.

and confession: shall we dance makes me cry every time i watch it.
i can just hear you now: "jordan, this movie has jlo in it. no way is it tear-worthy!"
but whatevs. it's so sweet. don't judge.

on another note, i am currently in chick-empowerment-mode when it comes to my music these days. obviously. my itunes play count now holds an embarrassing record next to that delicious little tune i {finally} discovered yesterday! you have any good suggestions for me? sometimes i have trouble branching out from the mainstream stuff, but i know there must be some other raging, angry girls out there, just waiting to meet my ears. thoughts?

also, it's a ladies only shift at starbucks today. no boys behind the counter. i kind of love that.

jordan's overall hump day attitude: i love being a girl.

i love love...
but don't mess with me.

"i'm out of this world, come with me to my planet. get you on my level, do you think that you can handle it?"
{nelly furtado}

disclaimer: this is not the result of poor treatment. not jaded. happy :)

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

in the frontline of this battle of mine, but i'm still alive

{jordan's tuesday thoughts}

zumba: thanks for reminding me of how great you are

i love it when you talk geography to me :)

i hate the feeling that takes over when you encounter someone who is no longer a part of your life

i want more pictures of your face so i won't have to miss you so much

i'm so almost there

and finally,
sade: where have you been all my life??
i'm not even sure how many times i've listened to this today
yum. yum. yum. yum. yum.

"i'm a soldier of love. every day and night. i'm a soldier of love. all the days of my life."

ps. all of the images from today's post are from this fabulous blog.
might be a new obsession of mine.

Monday, March 1, 2010

dreams on fire

i love this.

today i'm going to try some goal-setting.
i don't want to just float through life all the time. 
how can you make sure you are getting what you want out of life, if you don't even know what you want?

this week i need to / want to / have to:

get back to zumba on tuesday morning. i love it. why am i dreading it?

do some homework in advance. i'm a's what i'm here to do.

drink more coffee. fewer lattes, macchiatos, vanilla chais. just coffee.
on that note, i should probably throw a little more h2o into the mix. duh.

choose one b.o.r.i.n.g. weekday to put as much effort into my appearance as i would if i were going out.

make my apartment look a little more like home. i want to love it.

fall asleep to my favorite chick flicks again. i did this every night in college and i don't do it anymore. i miss it.

{what are you hoping to accomplish this week??}

"baby, you've got the sort of hands to rip me apart. and baby you've got the sort of face to start this old heart."