is it alright if i stay here all night, by the shoreline

      

i had kind of a perfect day on tuesday.

went to bolinas and moseyed around the beach for a while.

lots of great time to think about some things.

maybe an experience that left me thinking,

"this could potentially change me forever."

a treasured moment, without a doubt.

to sum it up (in one of those ways that probably still completely leaves you in the dark):

"love is an ocean and i'm a tiny cup"

dj put that record on

okay so let's just talk about something for a minute.

i've developed a bit of a girl crush.

this isn't the same thing i feel for adele, ingrid, or ke$ha.

those are the girls i want to be SLASH (bc that isn't an option)
be best friends with (bc that totally is).

nope. this is different.

i'm like mesmerized by dev.

i think that if i met her, i might feel butterflies or something.

anyway, the point is i obsess over this girl.

and her music.

if you've learned anything about me in our time together,

it should be that i love a good beat.

i love music that i can bump (WAY too loud) while i drive.

and her work is the perfect fix for a junkie like myself.

Dev - Booty Bounce from Little Owl Recordings on Vimeo.

[this is the edited version, which i thought would be more wholesome for the kids]

hope you enjoy. i will be rocking out to it for at least another 9 days, no doubt.

you can grow flowers from where dead used to be

as i sit under the sun

i look around and see

a wonder that i can't explain.

it's all so new to me.

beauty in the struggle,

grace in the consequence,

the flowers poking through.

light that gives life,

color that gives beauty,

and hope that will renew.

and so i choose

to hold onto

the wonder that i see.

let all else go

because i know

the wonder dwells in me.

i'm not gonna care

via lauren

honest?

i had a pretty yucky day.

i'm exhausted.

and right now i'm watching my giants blow this game against those silly dodgers.

but i did make some cookies tonight!

peanut butter/nutella gluten free cookies.

yes, i am still doing p90x {in theory} but let's talk about that another day.

and now i'm preparing for a little me-time in the hot tub.

so...to sum it all up...

let's consider this lesson learned.

and tomorrow, when i wake up,

i'd like to go back to being young and naive!

though i do have to say that

there were definitely some little rays of sunshine in the midst of my difficult day.

i am vowing to write about that in the next couple of days

bc i think it is more important than everything else.

and on a totally different {slash completely random note}

i'm seriously crossing my fingers for a funny dream tonight.

i won't mind the people when they stare

via richierichhh

"we are intrepid. we carry on."

elizabethtown

[yes, i am officially quoting a kirsten dunst movie on my blog. don't judge me.]

i don't care what happens in life: i carry on.

sometimes it all feels like too much, but (as my turbokick instructor said in class last night):

"look how far i've come."

party rock is in the house tonight

via she takes flight

"Ordinary life does not interest me.  I seek only the high moments.  I am in accord with the surrealists, searching for the marvelous.  I want to be a writer who reminds others that these moments exist."

from The Diary of Anais Nin